Saturday, August 18, 2012

Neighborhood Musings



Yesterday, as I sat on my rented front porch watching the neighborhood past by, the woman came twaddling down the street - butt rocking, arms swinging, looking ready for an animated conversation with somebody, dammit! Luckily, a friend came walking from the other direction in that moment and the twaddler jumps right into this animated conversation about how somebody she dealt with thought she was DEAD.

Quickly enough, she leaps from this to cussing somebody out. Calls this woman a storm-load of muthaf's and that kind of bitch and the other, then she says, "I can't stand that bulldagga (haven't heard that since high school). That under-cover bulldagga bitch." She says this in a matter-of-fact way, but very serious.

At first I think, "Bitch! Don't no-body want you!" But that might not be true. There's somebody out there for everybody.

Once I stop reacting to her homophobia, I begin to wonder if the real "sin" of this foe of hers was to be "under-cover" versus "up-front with her shit"? I wonder this, because nearly every day, I see this young butch girl - always rapping ghetto-romance lyrics out loud, sometimes sexually explicit lyrics about women. I'm not sure if these are her lyrics or she's just imitating what she's heard. I'm not current enough to know the difference. My point is, no one seems to give her any shit for being OUT (except for her high voice and titty bumps, my visiting friend thought she could pass for a boy), and she's very visible in the community.

Would the twaddler, and perhaps other members of the community, respect or deal better with this "bulldagga" if she was out?

5 comments:

erica smith said...

In my opinion being ultra feminine and the fact that most find it very surprising I'm a lesbian; People who are "homophobic" are not comfortable with their own sexuality to respect and or be comfy with anyone else's...

Fiona Zedde said...

i agree that sometimes the homophobia does stem from that. other times, it's fear that the sissy will take their man or the dyke will cop their girl. fear drives a lot of messed up behavior.

Melissa said...

To me, the fact that in this day and age, masculine looking females are still being referred to as "bulldagga" (I wonder who came up with that word) shows the ignorance

Melssa said...

Of the speaker. Her reference of the young ladies lifestyle has less to do with her being "out" and more to do with the fact that the girl just won't give her the time of day. She is bitter. Based on your description, she isn't in anyone's closet.

Fiona Zedde said...

i really hadn't heard the term since high school. and the last time someone called me that was back in middle school when i was looking through this boy's stolen copy of hustler magazine. very much juvenile memories.